( But she will give it -- he deserves it. Ana keeps her gaze on him, putting her tea cup down to rest her hands on her lap, a few seconds of silence to decide just how to try and explain it. Jack had already asked her the same question, though with him she'd hardly needed an explanation )
After I had been injured I felt many things, none of them so pleasant. I was upset -- angry and disappointed. And guilty.
( There's another pause, just another few seconds )
I had not been able to act, and it had cost the lives of my soldiers -- my family. I had been unable to protect them, and I could not live with that.
( So she could not live at all, not around those who would not blame her or would try to placate her. Ana could not have stood it, not then. But it wasn't also her hurt over her family that had caused it but her shame for herself, and the pain. It was more than just an injury )
I knew that it would hurt those that cared for me but it was what I needed to do. If you thought I was dead, never knowing the truth...
( But, even without being here, she'd changed that. Ana had healed enough and she'd sought Jack out, even sending Fareeha a letter. She'd been prepared to face this particular music )
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( But she will give it -- he deserves it. Ana keeps her gaze on him, putting her tea cup down to rest her hands on her lap, a few seconds of silence to decide just how to try and explain it. Jack had already asked her the same question, though with him she'd hardly needed an explanation )
After I had been injured I felt many things, none of them so pleasant. I was upset -- angry and disappointed. And guilty.
( There's another pause, just another few seconds )
I had not been able to act, and it had cost the lives of my soldiers -- my family. I had been unable to protect them, and I could not live with that.
( So she could not live at all, not around those who would not blame her or would try to placate her. Ana could not have stood it, not then. But it wasn't also her hurt over her family that had caused it but her shame for herself, and the pain. It was more than just an injury )
I knew that it would hurt those that cared for me but it was what I needed to do. If you thought I was dead, never knowing the truth...
( But, even without being here, she'd changed that. Ana had healed enough and she'd sought Jack out, even sending Fareeha a letter. She'd been prepared to face this particular music )